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Profoundly hypnotic and deeply disturbing: 'I could never predict what was going to ruin me and what was going to rescue me.' says Ilyana Meyerovitch, a self-confessed suicidal, strung-out Jew. Into her life, and her flat, walks her opposite - Susie Lyons - blonde, artistic, optimistic and above all, innocent. LIKE BEING KILLED is about the devastating effects the two women have on each other as they start to share more than a flat. Simultaneously drawn to Susie's wholesome values and repelled, Ilyana's desire for what Susie has will take her into the grip of a downward spiral whose only outcome is oblivion. LIKE BEING KILLED is the 90s brat-pack gone wrong. A novel of drugs, dependency and the myth of sisterhood, it takes the trust implicit in flat-sharing to its ultimate conclusion...

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Book Details

ISBN: 9781860496905
ISBN-10: 1860496903
Format: Paperback
(198mm x 126mm x mm)
Pages: 352
Imprint: Virago Press Ltd
Publisher: Little, Brown Book Group
Publish Date: 1-Apr-1999
Country of Publication: United Kingdom

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Book Reviews - Like Being Killed by Ellen Miller

US Kirkus Review » First-novelist Miller pulls a minimum of punches in her grueling depiction of a young woman's heroin-assisted downward spiral. Since her youth in Bensonhurst, Ilyana, the only child of crude, abusive parents, "sensed heroin as an inevitable destination." Now a bookish Brown graduate, she lives on the Lower East Side of Manhattan, the same neighborhood her grandparents had worked hard to escape. Ilyana does her best to resist friendships: such attachments seem inevitably to lead to loss. When her beloved roommate commits suicide, Ilyana replaces her with Susie, a big-boned mosaic maker who deflects Ilyana's reflexive cruelty and wears down her wariness with generosity and bad jokes. Effortlessly domestic, Susie even gets the nihilistic Ilyana to bake a peach pie. Initially, Ilyana is confused by Paul, Susie's nice-guy boyfriend, but then she gets at what's behind his lack of focus: that he's using heroin. He manipulates her into keeping it secret from Susie: and when Susie discovers her deception, she immediately moves out. Bereft, and ruminating on her lost friendship, Ilyana intensifies her own use and takes up with a slick pack of clever addicts - the sort who play parlor games predicting how each will die - but even that insubstantial circle evaporates when a gang member overdoses. Ilyana meticulously chronicles the degrading minutiae of the months that follow: her razor-sharp memory and ready grab-bag of scientific and literary references don't dissipate, but, rather, enrich her meditations on paralysis, consciously chosen loneliness, masochistic relationships (including a fling with Susie's Paul), and the decay of her bodily functions. It's only when Paul dies of AIDS, and Ilyana's suicidal wishes run rampant, that she opens herself to a redemption of sorts. Though the hopeful transformations feel a bit forced, Ilyana's voice is authentic in unsparingly illuminating the link between self-protection and self-destruction, revealing a tender inner life that persists despite addiction, depression, and descent into squalor. A bleak, bracing debut. (Kirkus Reviews)

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Author Biography - Ellen Miller

Ellen Miller has a Master of Fine Arts degree from New York University and was the recipient of the New York University Creative Writing Fellowship for Fiction. She lives in New York.

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